Your coming home, Astra <3 Travelling Choice, Astroid No longer alone, Sweetheart Away from the phone, Lovely (I know its hard to love me, lovely, my lovely little girl) Keep your eyes wide open Wind and sky is hoping, That rain will poor in And give us all a break Keep your eyes wide and Breathe, inside your Chest, brings life Your coming home, Astra <3 Travelling Choice, Astroid Everything works, dosent it? Everything works out, dosent it?

were a pair buried by the snow please come hear me I don't want to be alone Why, you're carrying away with the blow where did you go don't you know I'll freeze on my own oh (the shape of my head is round) (can you feel me through the sound?) I know that I am frozen you gusted and left me a snowman (the blow the blow, oh the blow)

Happy birthday Ria You're now sixteen Still holding onto those stupid dreams? Everything works Doesn't it? Everything works out Doesn't it? Happy Birthday Ria You're quite Keen On making sure that you Love everything Everything works Doesn't it? Everything works out Doesn't it? (audio clip of a video my mom made of me in the rain 4 months after my father left home) mmm mmm (Everything works) mmm (dosent it?) mmm take it back, take it back, oh god please take it back but you can't take back the things that you lack s distant glass half a cup in a shack a lingering past you fucked up in the act I wanna go back My actions have consequences mmm (Yeah cut this one) mmm mmm mmm But you can make, something to keep for yourself and you should get, something to eat for your health But you can make, something to keep for yourself and you should get, something to eat for your health (Happy birthday!)

I dreamed of us knitting things Shitly like kitty treats Your fingers crossed my fingers and pulled we shut to the thread (Pulled shut to the thread) A pin crossed my mind and into my heart Leaving me a moment to admire your art. But then I woke up, this admiration was fake like a fucked up stupid mistake You decided to call and I let it ring I'm fading by, past art's dream No matter what I said or what I did I'll never be allowed to be that kid And I'm really scared that she died Cause who am I if my brains alive I got out of my car Fell asleep in the yard and I sat there holding onto a string and some yarn I'm starting to question My sense of direction And as hard as I try I'll grip and I'll pry I know I'm heading downhill I know I'm missing my fill I just wanna be something everyone needs

I would wait on your doorstep, tacky suit on while the wind chimes ring out You'd come out, looking lovely, in a way, you only see on the TV and I would grab your hands, and I would touch them gently, and I would fall back right into you I'm no longer like that I'm not so blue. Your corners have holes where we put the thumbtacks And my left hand has scares where I put the broken glass Lie down in the backyard, watching the fireflies, fly into the night We would hold each other and sleep there on the grass And I waited all of winter Just to hate the summer And I waited all of my life Just to wait for you And now I'm asking you please don't wait forever And now you're looking at me vaguely, knowing that's all there is I'd love you forever, waist wrapped in corduroy Ohh come someday , lover boy I'm sure there will be some days of misunderstanding But that doesn't mean you can read my poetry, I know you didn't ask me Thinking of all the towns we would rather wither in Thinking of the sincere letter I'd write you before for being my best friend The textbooks of different languages I own, and the new hobby I wanted to start, now sits on my shelf holding up mango-scented candles and all my shitty desk art So now I'm stuck holding the hand, of the man I love most While we both fall, our pizza getting cold out on the porch And it's been a long long time Since the last time I felt semi-fine I love loving shit you would hate We could die in any other state Forever dreams vacation And you know I dream of you Watching and turning You don't know how much I do I cannot wait for you to come and join Oh please come someday, lover boy